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Feb. 22nd, 2006 09:36 pmI read a very interesting article in the new "Neon" today. It was titled "How does Love work?" and it was about a girl my age (better say woman) because at nearly a quarter century I guess one loses the entitlement to the title "GIRL" who didn´t know HOW exactly one does fall in love *G* and I said to myself, hey there are more people like you! That have butterflies for timespans ranging between weeks and not years.
Yes I am not a freak, for not knowing how to fall in love, that "desperatedeeploveyouforeverandabitlonger" kind of love and I felt GREAT finally having that confirmed by the papers *coughs*
I mean as I said I am 24 nearing 25 rapidly, and I have been in love that "I want to marry you" love once? maybe if I look closely twice?? And thats taking a fucking microscope to disect my feelings into itsybitsy titbits of information and analyzing them really closely before noticing that it was more of a yeah you are cute but not more kind of thing.
And nearly all of my collegues are either married or have long term relationships, and I mean longterm like 3 years and up.
Me personaly I feel great as a single independant woman, I can shag and snog who I want move all across GErmany or the world and nobody besides my mom complains, I get to go out with my friends, men and women alike and I don´t have the problem of being reduced to half of someone+Me.
so yes I feel good.
@Dea: I just read what you wrote, I couldn´t see it at work, who knows why. I did not want to sound clingy or so, although I probably did, its just that I really have missed you and I had this situation once before. The girl ended up telling others I was stalking her so PLEASE don´t think I do. I just miss my little crazy onee-chan:)
Something little on the side:) I am more boy than girl in my character
Yes I am not a freak, for not knowing how to fall in love, that "desperatedeeploveyouforeverandabitlonger" kind of love and I felt GREAT finally having that confirmed by the papers *coughs*
I mean as I said I am 24 nearing 25 rapidly, and I have been in love that "I want to marry you" love once? maybe if I look closely twice?? And thats taking a fucking microscope to disect my feelings into itsybitsy titbits of information and analyzing them really closely before noticing that it was more of a yeah you are cute but not more kind of thing.
And nearly all of my collegues are either married or have long term relationships, and I mean longterm like 3 years and up.
Me personaly I feel great as a single independant woman, I can shag and snog who I want move all across GErmany or the world and nobody besides my mom complains, I get to go out with my friends, men and women alike and I don´t have the problem of being reduced to half of someone+Me.
so yes I feel good.
@Dea: I just read what you wrote, I couldn´t see it at work, who knows why. I did not want to sound clingy or so, although I probably did, its just that I really have missed you and I had this situation once before. The girl ended up telling others I was stalking her so PLEASE don´t think I do. I just miss my little crazy onee-chan:)
Something little on the side:) I am more boy than girl in my character
| You Are 70% Boyish and 30% Girlish |
You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch. Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes. You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them. You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be. |
